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To the home of a half dead tiger.

Some of you might have noticed my inactiveness lately. Some of you might think I'm dead.

Well, you're not that far off the mark. A big, mean and nasty exam comes in 2 months from now, so it's stealing my soul in the process. Only thing good about this entire ordeal is that in 3 months I WILL BE FREE

As of now, I've drawn zilch for the past 2 weeks. Nothing. Nada. Zero. Kosong. orz This isn't looking too good.

I've grown even more fond of my PSP though. Dissidia: Final Fantasy has this strange way of leeching all my _non-existant free time. I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH CLOUD AND ZIDANE AND THEIR SEXY MOVES. PLUS, ZIDANE HAS A TAIL. A TAIL! 8D *stares* TOPLESS SEPHIROTH *bleeds all over keyboard* Needless to say, this fangirl is HAPPY.


MANGABULLET DESU
I finally joined Mangabullet after lurking there for nearly a year. I suppose my paranoia that someone'll take my username finally kicked in. FEEL THE POWAAAAH. I suppose my more anime-ish works'll eventually be redirected there. Less animu on dA would make it happier place. Or at least less flaming? DESU.

**Edit** I liek the place. Really, I do. But the massive amounts of HOMG THIS IS MY OC there is a bit..distracting.
Maybe I just need to get used to it.

of my gallery.

This rant may or may not have something to do with the fact that it's 1 am over here, I'm sleepy and seem to have workload that resembles a mini-mountain - but I am bored of my gallery.

Perhaps it's due to the fact that I actually drew them, and hence have the originals lying around everywhere; but the more I look at my work, the more unsatisfied I become. I've always felt this way about my own work, at it's probably what pushes me to make something better every time I pick up my pencils. But it really REALLY bugs me to see other deviant's galleries filled with the new and unexpected - in comparison, mine seems just so...dull. I suppose if I were to think this through when I'm fully awake I'd be able to reason out why I feel this way. I suppose it's BECAUSE I drew them that they seem dull, and that others have different ideas that they seem so much better-gah, brain's fried right now.

Plus, I seem to be easily artblock'd lately, and I hope it's due to exams - It would totally suck if it was a long-term thing.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE:
I HAS FOUND 初音ミク -Project DIVA- FOR MY PSP. AND I AM HOOKED. [link]
Cute Anime-styled graphics + Music + PSP = JOY. LOTS AND LOTS OF AWESOME JOY. It takes a bit of getting used to - BUT HEY IT'S AWESOME SO THERE.

..What exams.

I hear there's this deviation error going around, where deviations you submit don't appear in other's inboxes.

So, can anyone see this in their inboxes?

> [link] <

My internet's been mad all day, so I can't even see it myself. OTL

I've been quite inactive lately.


C-c-c-an you tell?

:iconwalleyeplz: HOMG WHERE IS THE PLZ
Now, if you've been watching me for a while now, you'll know how I am an exam students whose exams seem to go on forever and ever. And ever.
So you're probably thinking That damn weirdo tiger has exam crap again


Well, you're right about that part. But my exams don't go one forever and ever. In fact, I have only 4 months left before the big bad exam finaly arrives and smacks me in the face. And I do believe I'm getting exam tunnel vision. Like DO WELL OR DIE.


BUT THE INTERNETZ MAKES IT ALLLL BETTER. SO ITS AWWWWWWRIIIIGGGHTTTT~


On a more painful note, I'm still suffering some sort of art block. [RANT ALERT RANT ALERT]


I'm no longer satisfied with what I can do. I'm not happy with what I draw. Oh, it's not that I don't have the inspiration, it's that I am not happy AT ALL with what comes out. Hence the lack of posts lately. I've got a whole pile of drawings, sketches and completed works that I am just not happy with. Sometimes I wonder if I'll feel better if I shred them or something.


This pisses me off even more. I really hope that this block is due to exam stress or something.

But enough about me. How are you guys doing? 8D
DO YOU HAVE ANY AWESOME NEWS/ARTWORK TO SHARE? 8DDDDDD?

**Actual art related Journal ahead. You have been warned.**

I started to draw because I loved bright colors, and was hooked onto anime. Not any anime, but bright, happy anime. Not super SHIINNNYY DESSSU @w@ anime though,but more like Gundam SEED and Vandread. I didn't (and still don't) like darker anime, like Ghost In Shell, X, and Trigun...because in my eyes, they weren't pretty. Or bright. Or both.

Anyhoo, so I started drawing. And after a while, people started commenting how I only drew big-eyed, bright pictures. Well, I like big-ish (super huge ones scare me though) eyes, and bright colors, so I didn't think too much about it. But them someone told me that I had to stick my feet out of my bright and happy comfort zone if I ever wanted to improve.

So, I stuck a orange and black toe out of my little world and started exploring,bit by bit. Dark colors. Realism. Landscapes. Still life. and so on. I'm certainly no DaVinci, but I can safely say that I'm much better than that little 10 year old who liked drawing Pokemon.

Although I'd like to think that sticking my toes out of my comfort zone has helped me improve greatly (I think..? D8) there are days where I stare at a blank piece of printing paper and wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing.

I like drawing bright things. I draw, because I like to. It's not a career, and I don't earn a cent from it (quite the opposite lol). So why then, am I drawing something I don't like to draw?

But a little bit of my brain goes "Yeah, but you want to improve right?"

And I go back to drawing my chairs.

But I once read on the forums:
"If I only drew the things I liked, my gallery would be full of boobs and booze."

It's a huge circle. I want to draw shiny things. But my brain tells me to draw other non-shiny things to improve..so I can draw...better shiny things?

I've forgotten what I've been ranting about. I think I need more sleep. I think I should stop playing Dragonica for a while.

Uh...discuss. Lol.